Thursday, September 9, 2021

Everything was beautiful and nothing hurt

 


My son sent the police to do a welfare check on his girlfriend of 17 years yesterday because he had not heard from her in a couple of days and he was worried worried. The police found her dead in her bed. We are fairly certain she had a heart attack and passed in her sleep. 

Children are not supposed to die.
Children are not supposed to die.
Children are not supposed to die.

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Hearing my son howl in grief in his bedroom last night was the most terrible sound I have ever heard. It will haunt me my live long life but we are emotionally messy people. He is bereft and I am holding together to absorb what I can of his pain and grief. My son took this photo of Sam asleep in the backseat of his 57 Chevy.

Tomorrow Page heads to his father's to the orchard and the lake and then I can let myself fall apart to wail my own hurt. Think of us when you can and when you can.

Love.

19 Comments:

Blogger 37paddington said...

Oh God, Rebecca. I am so sorry. I'm am so so sorry. Holding you and Page in love.

September 9, 2021 at 5:41 PM  
Blogger Radish King said...

Thank you Rosemarie. I let Page know you posted here, too. He is deeply appreciative. Sending love.

September 9, 2021 at 9:35 PM  
Blogger plantingalongtheverge.com said...

OMG Rebecca. I am so so sorry for you and Page. I am thinking of both of you and sending you all the love and comfort.

September 10, 2021 at 7:40 AM  
Blogger Radish King said...

(((Yolanda))) holding your love here holding tight. You’ve met my boy. You know what a gentle soul he is. I’ll tell him you were here. Love you.

September 10, 2021 at 7:50 AM  
Blogger Elizabeth said...

Oh my god. I am so so sorry. I am holding you close, lighting a candle for all of you and sending so much love. Molto forte e corragio.

September 10, 2021 at 8:28 AM  
Blogger Ms. Moon said...

You know that you and your son are being held so tenderly in my heart. My mother-sister heart. I can't imagine anything hurting more than this for your boy which of course means that you are hurting like an axe in your heart. Your mother heart. I love you so.

September 10, 2021 at 2:42 PM  
Blogger Ramona Quimby said...

Oceans of love being sent to you, Rebecca. I am so, so sorry.

September 10, 2021 at 8:15 PM  
Blogger Barbara said...

I’m so sorry for this terrible loss. Thinking of you and Page and sending love.
Xoxo
Barbara

September 11, 2021 at 7:20 PM  
Blogger Radish King said...

Thank you for the courage Elizabeth. Love to your house from mine.

September 12, 2021 at 10:42 AM  
Blogger Radish King said...

I love you too Mary and I’m so glad you’re in my life💗

September 12, 2021 at 10:43 AM  
Blogger Radish King said...

Thank you RQ. It’s been so long since I was here I forgot how to answer comments for a minute. RK

September 12, 2021 at 10:45 AM  
Blogger Radish King said...

Thank you Barbara thank you my love to you.

September 12, 2021 at 10:45 AM  
Blogger Rebecca said...

my heart to your hearts. there is too much sadness in all these rooms where we live.

September 12, 2021 at 5:49 PM  
Blogger Radish King said...

(((Rebecca)))

September 12, 2021 at 6:49 PM  
Blogger Supervillainess said...

I am so sorry Rebecca. Those things are not supposed to happen. My love to you and your son.

September 12, 2021 at 7:13 PM  
Blogger Kathleen said...

I am so, so sorry.

September 12, 2021 at 7:33 PM  
Blogger Janet Miller said...

I am so sorry. There are just no words.

September 12, 2021 at 8:00 PM  
Blogger margaret said...

o Rebecca~I am so sorry to read of this passing~this beautiful girl of vintage dress. I sincerely ache with tenderness for you and Page. heart breaking~~~~

September 12, 2021 at 9:18 PM  
Blogger Pamela Johnson Parker said...

I am so very sorry for your loss, and for Page's loss, and for the loss to the world of such a beautiful woman. Sending you strength.

September 15, 2021 at 1:10 PM  

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