Dear Darklings,

I have been away for years and for two short months it feels like forever every day I woke and thought today will be the day but I have been busy learning how to be happy how to live inside of joy how to press against light instead of being invaded by darkness in fact today every light in the house is on every candle is lit not to push away night but to invite joy it's going to take a while to get back into the rhythm of my daily writing practice I've also been learning how to create boundaries for myself psychic and physical internet and town and this is the first Christmas in all of my memories that I woke happy and did not cry and did not grieve and did not become swallowed up with depression I went to the beach each morning walked my property cut my hair and dyed strands of it pink and I have been too sick to sit up for more than a half hour at a time but I'm on an uptick now I'm healthy and sane (comparatively) and I will be back here sooner now rather than later

Merry Christmas to those of you will observe
Merry Winter to those of you who are inside of the cold

I have missed you all but I'm back now

Love
Rebecca