A woman is born twice

Once through blood
Again through blood

I spilled over my regulation Sunday horror spilled over I walked to the kitchen heard Somewhere Over the Rainbow on a tinny childhood radio Sundays a black resonance secrets hidden meanings my inner cake fell my heart tried to escape my chest I made a mess of my kitchen butter sugar flour yeast a single orange yolk from Jack the Egg Man cinnamon I sat on a kitchen chair taking my own blood pressure over and over and over every five minutes in fact there are no facts am I dying the doctor says my blood pressure is normal my blood is normal my glucose levels and cholesterol levels are all normal all of it normal but here is my heart bleeding for Seppuku bleeding for Fridays at the Pearl Oyster Bar in New Orleans bleeding for Henry’s dream horses bleeding for coronavirus victims on a cruise ship bleeding for Amerikkka I am coming down with a ragey case of insanity my heart bleeds for Dorothy Gale and Alice Liddell and Elsie Paroubek and Violet Vivian

A woman is born twice
once through blood
Again through blood

A third time through the kitchen her kitchen every kitchen in the known world


I wish I had a zombie font so I could type


COFFEE COFFEE 


and then put my arms in front of me and stagger around drooling 

I’m making cinnamon rolls for the Dutchess